Idk where to start. It's a month into school. Was a complete high seeing all my friends for the first time in six months. But now things are starting to settle down (& not in a good way). I came here 90lbs. Felt amazing. But college parties (aka alcohol & late night munchies) have made me gain. 95 right now & feel like shit. I was okay the first week but then I went back to mia (not the easiest thing living with five other girls) but it's clearly not even worth it. I can't purge went I want or get it all up - one of my roomates already heard me puking twice & i'm praying she doesnt tell anyone. I never realized how hard it would be to go back. I have five roomates & I'll describe them all below bc since I need somewhere to vent, I'll be writing a lot about them. 
A- sweet. shy. sometimes a debbie downer. she's overweight & i always feel her judging me for being smaller. she has no self control & i'm kinda tired of hearing her bitch about losing weight, eating cake, & then picking out slutty halloween costumes she thinks she'll fit into in a month. Happens every year. K- Wasn't too close with K last year. Her & AA used to be attatched at the hip but since I've been gone a lot has changed. Prbly my least favorite- she's a snob (& admits it), hates socializing unless people live up to her impossible standards (yet she's not even comparable), thinks she's marrying into money..need I say more? R- I think I'm closest with R this year. Which is weird bc I was always closer to A. We have the same party attitude,"Go all out. Meet new ppl. Get drunk. etc.etc." She likes to have fun. & when A & K drag us down, we have each other's back. AA- Laidback like R & I. She's not the thinnest girl but she likes to eat healthy, is vegetarian, & work out. Very Positive attitude. Smokes weed. Inner hippie. N- She was kinda random. Total sweetheart. Does her own thing. 
So besides that, I decided to join a challenge- UHW- which starts october 4th. I miss this place where I can vent without people judging me & meeting girls who have the same goals. So here I go again. I need to get my life back on track. So many different things I need to balance. My weight. My grades. My finances. My social life. My love life. I'm stressed. Need to go to sleep but will update tomorrow. Need to keep busy so I don't eat. (will cross off as completed) Tomorrow's Plan: 10am- Class (coffee)
11- Straight to Library.
12- Study
1- Grab a salad. coke zero. & apple or orange. (coffee) edit: They had no salads- got grilled veggie hummus wrap & banana & apple
2- Class
3- Work
6- Library until 7 to avoid eating edit: Went to cafe with AA. got a salad & lentil soup
7- socializing
8- tie dying with the girls
9- Other intake: 2 bananas, an apple, lentil soup, tortilla wrap
Not sure about the calories as of now. (What I hate about the cafe) 
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